Ashley Cain has revealed that he has had ‘one of the most difficult days of his life’ after the news his baby daughter Azaylia relapsed amid her leukaemia battle.
The former Ex On The Beach star, 30, said on Friday night that he felt like his heart was being ‘torn to pieces’ as he stared at his baby girl, seven months, while she sat in her hospital bed.
Azaylia underwent a bone marrow test on Tuesday to see if she was leukaemia free but Ashley and partner Safiyya Vorajee, 33, were left devastated after the relapse news.
Sad: Ashley Cain has revealed that he has had ‘one of the most difficult days of his life’ after the news his baby daughter Azaylia relapsed amid her leukaemia battle
Ashley said that they have been left with ‘very few options’ with the family immediately admitted back into hospital.
Sharing a sweet picture to his Instagram on Friday night of his little one in hospital, he wrote: ‘Today has been one of the most difficult days of my life.
‘I feel like my heart is being torn to pieces. But as I’m staring over at my little baby girl in her cot from my hospital bed, I see hope.
‘Hope that I will hang onto, hold tight and use to fight every inch and every second of this fight! (reading this poem touched my heart, whoever wrote it… I thank you.’
Upset: The former Ex On The Beach star, 30, said on Friday night that he felt like his heart was being ‘torn to pieces’ as he stared at his baby girl, seven months, while she lied in her hospital bed
He then shared a picture of a poem which was dedicated to his daughter.
He also took to his Instagram Story to share how he was feeling, saying: ‘Today’s been one of the toughest days on this journey so far. That’s the honest truth.
‘It’s crazy we are back in this place. My head honestly, it’s so difficult, it’s such a difficult position to be in.’
Cruel: Azaylia underwent a bone marrow test on Tuesday to see if she was leukaemia free but Ashley and partner Safiyya Vorajee, 33, were left devastated after the relapse news
Honest: Sharing a sweet picture of her on his Instagram on Friday night of his little one in hospital, he wrote: ‘Today has been one of the most difficult days of my life’
He then panned over to Azaylia in her hospital bed and said: ‘And my little princess over there she’s just the most beautiful thing in the world to me and it’s breaking my heart.’
On Thursday night the reality star explained that they currently only have one possible solution to ‘save Azaylia’s life’ and it will see the trio leave the country in a matter of days to embark on a ‘year long journey’ to help his ‘beautiful little girl’.
Ashley shared a collection of sweet pictures of Azaylia in an ‘amazing’ babygrow alongside the update, he penned: ‘Azaylia’s last day at home!
‘After yesterday’s results we have found out that Azaylia has heartbreakingly relapsed and we have immediately been admitted back into hospital as inpatients. We are devastated at the news and are left with very few options.
Sweet: Ashley then shared a picture of a poem which was dedicated to his daughter
‘We, along with the consultants have been reaching out globally in the last 24 hours to find a solution to save Azaylia’s life. So far, we have only one potential option that we will be getting confirmation on tomorrow.
‘This will mean that we will be uprooting and leaving the country in a matter of days/weeks to embark on a year long journey to save our beautiful little girl! ❤️.’
Ashley then praised his baby girl for being so ‘strong’ amid her leukaemia battle.
Update: On Thursday Ashley said that they have been left with ‘very few options’ with the family immediately admitted back into hospital
He added: ‘Azaylia is such a strong little girl who has fought through every near impossible battle so far and she has done it all with love in her heart and a smile on her face!
‘We pray that we get the right news tomorrow so she can continue fighting for the life that she loves so much! ❤️.’
Ashley signed off his post with: ‘Thank you for all your support so far and please keep our little girl in your prayers!’
Statement: Ashley shared a collection of sweet pictures of Azaylia in an ‘amazing’ babygrow alongside the update, he penned: ‘Azaylia’s last day at home!’
Earlier this week, the reality star revealed that his daughter Azaylia was set to have a bone marrow test to see if she is finally leukaemia free.
Sharing a picture of Azaylia in her car seat all tucked-up in a pink blanket, Ashley wrote: ‘We’re on the way to the hospital for Azaylia’s bone marrow test today to find out whether she is finally leukemia free!
‘Consultants made us aware that if her leukemia returns after transplant there are only few options left.
Let’s go champ! Earlier this week, the reality star revealed that his daughter Azaylia was set to have a bone marrow test to see if she is finally leukaemia free
‘Over the last few weeks we have been exploring one of these options, by weaning her off her cyclosporine medication to give her donor cells a boost, in the hope that they take action in combating the leukemia (sic).’
He went on: ‘I’ve felt extremely tense today. Having your baby put under anaesthetic and going into theatre for yet another operation is hard enough, but with the added pressure of whats riding on this just takes the nerves to a whole new level!
‘Fingers crossed, hopes, wishes, prayers and positive affirmations are going into this. I believe in you champ, Let’s go!’
Ashley, who has openly documented the daily challenges of caring for his daughter while she battles leukaemia, said last week having the youngster at home as ‘brought so much of his soul back.’
Hopes: In a lengthy caption, Ashley admitted he ‘felt extremely tense’ because of her being put under anaesthetic to have the operation but also from the hopes riding on it
He also said that he and Azaylia had returned to hospital for a visit as they were waiting for her to have a bone marrow test.
In a lengthy post, which accompanied a picture of him and Azaylia in hospital, he wrote: ‘Humbled every time we return. Being at home has been amazing.
‘Having my family back together again has brought so much of my soul back, that I didn’t realise how much had actually gone!
‘It’s crazy that it was only the other day that it kicked in again how poorly my baby really is and how much of a tough battle we still have ahead! (sic)’
Sweet: Sharing a picture of Azaylia in her car seat all tucked-up in a pink blanket, Ashley wrote: ‘The added pressure of whats riding on this just takes the nerves to a whole new level’
He went on: ‘I was speaking to my partner last night and I said to her that this is by far the saddest and most heartbroken I have ever been, yet it’s the happiest and most complete I have ever been
‘I guess it doesn’t make sense unless you’re in it, but when my baby is at home with me there is no moment in my lifetime that compares!
‘We have another eagerly waited bone marrow test coming up. My heart, my soul, my energy and my prayers are that we get the result we have been wishing for this time around! Let’s go Likkle Lion. I believe in you.’
It comes after Ashley admitted that he’s found the last couple of weeks ‘mentally challenging’ as he copes with his baby girl’s diagnosis.
Candid: Ashley said last week having Azaylia at home as ‘brought so much of his soul back’ after briefly returning to hospital
In an emotional video shared to his Instagram earlier this month, the reality star told how he’s pushed himself to get out of his ‘comfort zone’ and back on top form as he insisted: ‘My daughter needs me at 150%’.
Speaking into the camera during a walk, Ashley told how the video is ‘self reflection’ after finding himself struggling mentally in the wake of his daughter’s illness.
The reality star then gave an inspirational message of how he’s turned things around and is determined to be strong and transfer his positive energy to his little girl.
He said: ‘The last couple of weeks have been very mentally challenging and I’ve done what I never do, I let myself slip.
Procedure: Ashley said his seven-month-old daughter is now waiting for another bone marrow test, and his ‘heart’ and ‘soul’ are focusing on getting ‘the result we have been wishing for’
‘It’s all because I haven’t kept my standards, I haven’t been tenacious with the way I go through life. I’ve sat back and I’ve allowed myself to get in my comfort zone and that is the worst thing you can do. Nothing was ever achieved in a comfort zone.’
Earlier this month, he gave an update on Azaylia’s treatment, saying he and partner Safiyya Vorajee’s next course of action was to reduce her cyclosporine medication in the hope it will prompt Azaylia’s stem cells to fight her cancer.
Ashley was left in tears last month when he marked the moment his daughter Azaylia left hospital to go home for the first time in five months.
The reality star described it as a ‘miracle blindsided by heartbreak’ after doctors delivered the news her leukaemia had returned – just 10 minutes before the family were due to leave the children’s ward.
So tough: It comes after Ashley admitted that he’s found the last couple of weeks ‘mentally challenging’ as he copes with his baby girl’s devastating diagnosis
Taking to Instagram, Ashley shared the moment of Azaylia ‘ringing the bell’ so he and his partner Safiyya could finally take her home, with Azaylia continuing her treatment as an outpatient.
The couple had faced an agonising two week wait to find out whether the stem cell transplant managed to clear out the leukaemia from her bone marrow.
Ashley said he was devastated to learn Azaylia was at a higher risk of complications going into the transplant after her cancer returned, following two rounds of chemotherapy.
When Azaylia was diagnosed with leukaemia she had a soaring white cell count of 200, and also had tumours on her lungs, kidneys, and stomach.